I remember

This mind frame. I'd forgotten how hard it was, crystalline in some ways. No tolerence for myself or others.

It's a hard thing to encompass. A____ and I were driving the other day, and chatting. He was wondering why I was so, grumpy? flat? And it's this mind frame. Bitter and brittle. It was always why it cracked and I ended up indulging in pleasures that took me away from this, even when those were transient and ultimately frustrating and misleading.

so, how to be human and beast at the same time. Or at least I need to bring the beast's drives closer in line to mine. But then, they already are, it's just that it has tunnel vision. predator.